December 2011
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Lesson learned.
Don’t ever leave without saying goodbye. I thought I learned that the first time… but I made the same mistake again.
That ruined my day and I’m still feeling distraught.
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Fix You - Coldplay
Lights will guide you home...
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rubiesymusica replied to your post: 3 weeks later…
Oh I know what you’re feeling as I read it I guessed what the reaction was. Talk to her and show her that you want to move forward, not stay stuck in a bad place. Talk until she gives in, you are worth it!
Thanks so much for your kind words :)
After all that, she did end up sending the information to my doctor. Now it’s just a...
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3 weeks later...
I had a doctor’s appointment three weeks ago yesterday. At that appointment, I talked to her and my mother about going on meds for anxiety and panic disorder. Everything was great; mum agreed to fax information as soon as she could.
I hadn’t heard anything about it - no follow up, nothing - so I decided to ask. I found out that my mother had not even touched the stuff she was supposed...
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Performance tonight
I’m nervous… not about screwing up, but because this is a huge panic attack trigger.
Tonight is panic disorder meets social anxiety.
Someone’s going to be videotaping everything. So if I have a panic attack during a performance, it will be caught entirely on film and put on Facebook. It is the hardest thing in the world not to let it show at all.
So I’m nervous. Wish me...
fresh-effect asked: We emetophobics have to stick together through the highs and lows and I hope you have alot more highs now than lows :)
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Just a thought
I need to remember to relax. There’s rarely (and I mean rarely) ever going to be a time where I will have no possible work to do. I need to learn to be okay with that.
At the same time, I also need to learn to be efficient at working… sigh.
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fresh-effect asked: I just read your success post on the emetophobia tag Congratulations :D !
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Success (at last)
I went to a restaurant. Voluntarily. I could’ve chosen not to go, but I went.
I didn’t have any panic attacks all day. Not at work, not in the restaurant, not anywhere.
I ate meat at the restaurant. Not a huge amount, but enough that would normally make me uncomfortable.
I touched public doors, menus, etc. Didn’t get freaked out or very anxious; it barely even phased me.
I...
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je dois devenir un mur. un mur en acier.
don’t let anything in.
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Getting stronger?
These last three weeks have been tough. I have been having panic attacks all over the place, which is very exhausting. However, I’ve learned how to control them a little bit better lately. Medication would still be the best option though, as it is taking away from my school work.
I did have a panic attack at work today though. Too many people were there and it was getting noisier. I paid...
mlaffs asked: Hey, saw your post about prozac and just wanted to send some advice your way. I was diagnosed with panic disorder and agoraphobia 4 1/2 years ago. I was at the point where I would have multiple panic attacks a day and could not leave my house. After trying a few drugs unsuccessfully, I ended up on prozac. Prozac has changed my life. I now live by myself, go to school, work, travel. It's...
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